Some weeks don’t hit you like a wave… they hit you like a thousand tiny paper cuts.

Not the kind that make you bleed out… just the kind that sting enough to make you question your entire personality, your relationships and your ability to read the tone of a two word text message.

And that’s where I’ve been lately.

I’ve been moving along. Doing what needs doing. Handling life like I’m fine. But inside… I’ve felt tender. Like my emotional skin is sunburned and everything is rubbing against it.

The Olympics of Overthinking

Here’s how my brain has been operating lately…

🔴 I read a text wrong.

🤯 “What was that supposed to mean?”

🤔 Did they just use a period like a weapon?

🔴 Someone doesn’t choose the plan, the invite, the thing…

🤯 “What did I do wrong?”

🤔Was I annoying? Was I too much? Was I not enough?

🔴 Bean gives me the side-eye…

🤯 “Is Bean secretly plotting my death?”

😑 And listen… we all know the answer to that last one.

Cats are tiny fluffy mob bosses. They don’t need a reason.

But that’s the thing… when your nervous system is already on edge, everything feels like a message. Everything feels like feedback. Everything feels like proof.

My brain starts acting like it’s employed full time as a detective in a low budget crime show titled: What’s Wrong With Me Now?

When Everything Feels Like A Judgment

On the surface, I know I do this. I can tell myself, “You’re taking it personally. Stop.”

But subconscious me?

She’s convinced everybody’s judging.

She’s sitting in the background like a stressed out courtroom sketch artist, drawing conclusions with zero evidence & full confidence.

☠️ A pause.

☠️ A look.

☠️ A short reply.

☠️ A change of plans.

Suddenly my brain is writing a whole story about how I’m failing at being a person.

If You’re Here Too

If you’ve been taking everything personally lately… I see you.

If you’ve been doing fine on the outside but spiraling on the inside… I see you.

If your brain is making documentaries out of small moments… I see you.

Maybe the goal this week isn’t “get it all together.”

Maybe the goal is simple…

❤️ Be gentle.

❤️ Do what you can.

❤️ Let that be enough.

This is Journeys With Jani… where we travel sometimes, overthink often, and try to be human either way.

XOXO, Jani