Journeys With Jani

Let’s just cut through the weeds:

I’m not here to push a pharmaceutical version of marijuana that’s been stripped, modified, sterilized, and boxed up with a warning label.

I’m here to talk about the real thing. The plant. The original.

Because I have Multiple Sclerosis. I live with childhood C-PTSD. I have adult ADHD. And guess what? Marijuana—actual, unprocessed marijuana—helps.

I’ve tried the prescriptions. I’ve lived the side effects. I’ve stared at a long list of pills meant to “manage” me. Nausea, brain fog, appetite issues, insomnia, mood swings—you name it. Every single one came with its own set of tradeoffs. That’s just the deal, right?

But it shouldn’t have to be.

Marijuana—whole and natural—has been demonized in this country for decades. We were all raised on the “This is your brain on drugs” campaign. We watched the egg sizzle in the pan and were told that’s what would happen if we ever touched a joint. Meanwhile alcohol stayed legal, profitable, and deadly.

Let’s not forget: alcohol is a drug.

It’s wrecked more lives in my family than marijuana ever could.

Addiction runs deep on my mother’s side, and I’ve seen firsthand the damage it causes. I enjoy a good glass of wine or a smooth bourbon, but I’m also aware of my limits—because alcohol and depression are a dangerous mix. I monitor my intake because I have to.

And yet marijuana is the one with the bad reputation?

Here in Georgia, I can’t legally access what could help me more than anything. What grows in the ground. What’s been used by cultures around the world to heal, calm, relieve, and restore.

I’ve been to California. I’ve toured outdoor and indoor grows. I’ve visited dispensaries where the people behind the counter knew more about what would help me than half the doctors I’ve seen. These aren’t just “stoners.” These are educated, passionate professionals who believe in the power of the plant.

And don’t talk to me about regulation. Legal growers go through mountains of red tape—licensing, safety checks, lab testing, environmental compliance. These are not backyard operations. These are legitimate businesses trying to help people legally, while the rest of us are stuck waiting on lawmakers to pull their heads out of the 1980s.

You want to know who else marijuana could help? Our veterans.

My stepdad was a Vietnam vet. The best of men. Loyal, rough around the edges, but gentle with those he loved. He didn’t talk about the war much. But he carried it—always. You could see it in the way he disappeared sometimes—not physically, but emotionally. He’d check out. He’d go silent. That was PTSD talking.

He passed a few years ago after battling cancer. My stepsister told me that in his final 20 minutes, he was back in Vietnam. That gutted me.

His journey has allowed me to better understand my son’s battle with PTSD and depression as a result of his own military service… And I am thankful for it. It is not an easy thing to watch the battle in a persons mind control life.

PTSD is not a weak man’s issue. Depression doesn’t only come for the fragile. These are real, raw battles—and marijuana could be a lifeline.

Not a cure. But a comfort. A way back to peace, even for just a moment.

So why is that illegal?

Now before you start throwing links to all those so-called “scientific studies” in my face, let’s be real—many of those are scare tactics. Sure, marijuana has downsides. Everything does. But let’s stop pretending that a few cherry-picked risks make it worse than the man-made pharmaceuticals that can destroy your liver, ruin your gut, and mess with your brain chemistry. I’ll take the occasional dry mouth or case of the munchies over suicidal thoughts and organ damage, thank you very much.

I’m not saying everyone should use it. I’m not saying it’s harmless or magical or perfect. But I am saying it should be an option. A legal, natural, educated choice—not something you have to sneak around to get.

And to the ones still clutching their pearls at the idea of someone lighting up a joint?

Sit down. Shut up. If you haven’t lived in this kind of body or this kind of mind, maybe just… listen instead of judge.

The war on marijuana has gone on long enough.

Let’s stop rewriting nature. Let’s stop acting like people who use marijuana are criminals.

And let’s finally legalize a plant that’s helped people long before we ever decided to criminalize it.

I don’t want permission to get high.

I want the freedom to choose what helps me live well.

XOXO, Jani